So I had planned to make this post something about a recovery update but then I got to thinking and instead of just writing about where I’m out overall, I wanted to touch on something that really hit me hard the other day.
With the holiday weekend, my boss at work let us go early Friday afternoon. As I was heading home, I had to pass the company gym where I workout and I had this strong desire to take the exit and go to the gym. Again. For the second time that day. And no it was not because I hadn’t worked out enough during the week, I thought I ate too much or didn’t workout hard enough. I crushed and killed every single one of my workouts that week, I felt so strong and healthy and good because I was fueling my body. That’s when it hit me: I no longer wanted to go to the gym to burn more calories or to punish my body; I wanted to go because I truly loved the gym, my body, and everything it meant to me.
As you know, this wasn’t always the case. For me, lifting has been amazing for me because I genuinely am passionate about the lifestyle I have created with it. I will easily get out of bed at 5:30 am to go lift before work. I will push myself farther in the gym (sometimes until failure) to get stronger. Yes its work, yes I have to grind, and yes I have to “sacrifice” some things. But you see, to me, it isn’t a sacrifice, it’s a lifestyle–my lifestyle. I love that I have found to fuel my body now so that I can feel strong and healthy. After the gym, I feel the most confident ever because of what I just accomplished and grinded for. I get excited to lift and go to the gym. But I think the best thing about all of this is that, as I mentioned above, this wasn’t always the case. I have struggled, battled, and fought to get to a good place. And although I’m not fully there yet, I am in a much better and happier place now because of this life I created for myself and the passion I found to make me love my life. Find that for you!!
When you have something to look forward to, when you love what you do and are passionate about your lifestyle, that’s when you will truly shine, live freely, and live a life you love. I am so much happier now that I have found this healthy lifestyle that I really do enjoy. I love the workouts–even the sprints that are so hard they make me cuss in the middle, I feel amazing and strong during and after. I love fueling my body with healthy, nutritious foods (most of the time) and taking care of myself. I love my passion and ambition that I have. I love my work ethic, discipline, and dedication that I have developed. When I had this realization the other day, I realized that I truly am a badass. I am proud of everything I have done and currently do, I am happy to be living the life I am and I can’t wait to see what my future brings me. I’m doing this all for me–no one else. I don’t care if people think about me, I don’t care if people support me or think I’m crazy because guess what? They don’t matter. And not in a rude I dont’ care about people way. But if I am loving what I do and making myself happy, then why would I change for anyone? The answer is you don’t.
To wrap up, I want you to know that whatever it is you are passionate about, whatever it is you want to do or think about doing–DO IT. Seriously. Find what it is that drives you, that motivates you like hell to keep pushing and working, what makes your passion light up thinking or talking about. Find a life that makes you happy and healthy, that you don’t want a break from and you can’t wait to keep living.
Find all of this and I promise you, you will live a life you love.